It's 6:15 a.m. on 11/21/2011, and I just got side tracked with the amount of '1's in the date...hmmm...I don't know why that is so intriguing to me. Anyway, today is the first day of a one month journey to recreating my self-worth. There is a back story to this, and as any of my previous students can tell you, there always is: I was driving around town the other day, which I try often not to do because certain Koreans live in the world of Nascar, and while I was fearing for my life and the life of the side mirrors on Cecil (our Patherfinder's name), I heard an add on the radio. The Dallas Cowboy Cheerleaders will be visiting this area starting December 19. They are going to visit the soldiers and tour the area for about a week. Usually, I would be super stoked upon hearing such incredible news, but I found myself with a heavy heart because my heavy gut was being cut in half by the seat belt. I can barely watch a movie with any attractive girl in it without wanting to rip my face off more or less meeting/stalking a group of incredible women. That's it! I am putting my foot down once and for all. I cannot live like this. It's exhausting to me and to my husband who always has to pick up the broken pieces of Abigail surrounded by cake crumbs and pickle seeds. I will work my four butts off to find that personal acceptance and happiness. I dub today the first day of Operation Dallas Cowboy Cheerleaders aka Operation I Hate Megan Fox. I will write daily about my workout/meals/mindset. I'll keep it brief, but honest, so here we go:
Week 1
11/21 (6:26 a.m.): I missed my morning workout; good start, Abigail. However, I'm lovin' this egg samich!!
(5:18 p.m.): Just completed my Insanity workout (2 video day). I properly fueled up with fruit and veggies for a snack, and then some oatmeal for lunch. Okay, okay, and two tater tots made it into the equation...and a bite of cake, but it was good cake!
(?:?? p.m.): Pasta and Kit-Kat...shoot me in the face.
Alrighty, Abigail, let's try this again.
11/22 (Blah p.m.): The day went really well when it came to making good decisions. Unfortunately, I didn't have a chance to workout once! I've been busy in the kitchen all night, literally from after school to eleven tonight. Goodnight.
11/23 (7:45 a.m.): Okay, okay, yummy egg sammie means it's GO TIME!
(4:10 p.m.): Had an incredible workout today with Insanity and some Abigail Zumba. No food for the rest of the day. All this tasting of TGiving foods has made one full belly. I did learn an important lesson today, though: Koreans do not like gravy.
11/24 -11/27 (does the time matter?): Shame...
The week of Thanksgiving may not have been the best time to make such a bogus promise to myself.
Week 2
11/28 (8:00 p.m.) I had a really good day, and I renewed my vows with WeightWatchers by activating my account once again. BTW: Boca Burgers = delishiosoness! (I had fun working out with my Jessica!!!)
11/29 (6:15 p.m.) Rainy day equals inside workouts all day: Insanity, Jillian Michaels, and Pilates. We finally finished the TGiving leftovers, and who knew stuffing had that many points...blah. But, now all of the temptations are out of the house!
11/30 (9:26 a.m.) I just finished my oatmeal on this dark, rainy day. It's a good thing we don't have a cat because I just wanna snuggle alllllllllllll day. My abs are freakin' sore as all get out; I must have done something right.
(12:26 p.m.) Once again, I did my rainy day routine: Insanity, Jillian Michaels, and Pilates. Whoa, I just noticed that the minutes on my time match...weird.
12/1 (8:43 p.m.) Today was full of great news, so I was able to tackle Insanity, Jillian Michaels, and Pilates with an incredible attitude. Once I coerced my downstairs neighbor to have dinner with us, which included her brining a bunch of yummy veggies, we had a very healthy dinner!! Feeling great!
12/2 (5:57 a.m.) I was totally awake a 4:15 this morning, so I could get my workout in. My husband had his arm across me either out of love or or attempted murder by strangulation for keeping my alarm on repeat; regardless, I couldn't bring myself to move his arm. I inched in closer, thankful to have him by my side. I did not go back to sleep, but I used that time to count my blessings.
(8:45 p.m.) I just had all of my points for the next two weeks, and I didn't workout today...blah.
12/3 (12:44 p.m.) My husband bought me a robe...all hope is lost.
(2:23 a.m.) Let's be honest, any decision made at two in the morning on a Saturday can't be good...fun, but not good :)
12/4 (1:15 p.m.) Shut your mouth about that freaking two hour workout. It was crazy, actually, more like Insane. Sorry, Jessica, (downstairs neighbor) for the plyometrics today.
This week went a little bit better. Everything always seems to fall apart at the weekend, but it's all in good fun. This week, however, I'm starting to understand just how much my husband loves me; it's unreal how great that feeling is. Working out and dieting doesn't make me comfortable with who I am, but he does.
Week 3
12/5 (6:24 a.m.) I am my mother's daughter because I woke up at 4:15 to workout, but the house was too messy from all of the Christmas kitchen goodies made this weekend. But now the kitchen is clean, so there are no distractions when I get home from school! Except for maybe the robe...
(7:47 p.m.) I am proud to announce that I can make a crock pot of navy beans as good as my mother's! I did a killer hour of Insanity and then took it downstairs to my Jessie's to bust out some pilates. I just wrapped up every piece of Christmas candy I made this past weekend so it can leave our house. My buckeyes are just too good to be here.
12/6 (5:45 a.m.) Great Insanity workout this morning!
(9:37 p.m.) Great mixed drinks this evening!
12/7 (6:25 a.m.) Well, today is my weigh in day, and I weigh 1.6 lbs more today than I did a week ago. From reading over this, it's not hard to see why. Reuben and I spoke today, and we're giving both of our bodies and overhaul...boooo.
(6:27 p.m.) Just finished my Insanity workout; I've made it to the point where the videos are an hour or longer. It never gets easy! Healthy decisions all day today for both Reuben and me!!!
12/8 (5:56 p.m.) Hahahahaha....nope.
12/9 (5:55 a.m.) Just finished my Insanity workout. I've messed my schedule up, so now I have to do double video days, meaning at this hour I know I have to come home from work and do another video. We'll see what happens.
12/10 (?:?? ?.?.) Happy Birthday to me and all of my extra pounds!
12/11 (2:10 p.m.) So, I just got done with my Insanity video and I think I'm sweating out frosting, scrambled eggs, and Sake. Needless to say, yesterday was awesome. I'm super behind on my videos, so I'm gonna double up throughout this week. I need to find that groove I had back in the states, but right now, all I want to do is climb back into bed.
12/12 (5:26 p.m.) One Insanity video...admitting defeat...feel like death...addicted to deep fried rice nuggets. (I don't know what they are actually called, but here, I call them Dream-Come-True-Nuggets.)
12/13 (4:42 a.m.) Just completed my favorite kinda workout ;)
12/14 (5:41 a.m.) Well, it is my weigh-in day, and I am down a pound from last week which is a good motivator. I already ate my egg white samich to power me through the day. Morning workouts start back tomorrow!
(5:11 p.m.) Insanity completed; I was stressed to tears and that just made it allllllll better!!!
12/15 (6:27 p.m.) My head feels like it's in a vice; oh no, could it be? Is this my first kindergerm-given-icky-feeling? I think it is. Absolutely no productivity today unless you count the ability to attempt to rid myself of all drainage with the mother of all nose blows. I think I ruined an ear drum.
12/16 (11:28 p.m.) Take yesterday and multiply it by the gel used on the cast of Jersey Shore and that's how I feel. I made all the food and set it out for my husband's poker night, greeted everyone, shut my bedroom door, put on my pajammies, and surrendered to my face.
12/17-12/19 (Cough...sneeze) Friends were seen and appreciated, calories were had, workouts were ignored, Kleenex was used, Mucinex was glorified, Afrin was abused, and to top off the feeling of my face trying to fold in half, the biggest cold sore in the world made itself known today. He introduced himself, and I quivered....aye me.
12/20 (9:38 a.m.) Proud to announce that my face doesn't totally hate me anymore; I mean, it still hates me, but not as much. I have found the energy to put on some tennis shoes and begin my workouts for the day. I ate my egg whites, and I could actually taste them. On my way to feeling better. Well, here we are, folks, we made it to the end, and what did we learn about this kind of goal made by Abigail? I didn't want to put it on here because that would be a super long blog. My reflection on this past month coming soon....
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